My Random Thoughts

Personalized Planner

2009-12-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

Haven't scrapped again for months but gave some personalized stuffs to some friends using some scrapbooking materials. Hope they like it.

JEL's 1st Fever

2009-10-18T19:00:00.000+08:00

I was not able to update this blog for some time because JEL got sick. A day after we got my biopsy result, JEL had a fever. We still went to the office the next day thinking that it will not get worse. However, we got worried when our helper started to text us that JEL's temperature is increasing. When it reached 39C, Hubby and I decided to go home and called her pedia for other instruction that she can give.

JEL looked fine when we got home but we can see that she is weak. Her temperature is also lower. Got to Chinese Gen Hospital after 2 hours. She still doesn't have a fever. Her pedia also can't explain why. She just instructed us to have a CBC of JEL the next day if she'll have any fever within the night. We all thought that she is now better. We even decided to drop by my SIL's house in Cubao for a dinner. She was sleeping on our way back when I started to feel her temp rising. It was good that we have a wet towel to use on her. We're not able to bring her paracetamol. We just asked our helper to buy one when we got in my SIL's house. JEL was still playing with her cousins but every 3 hours, her temp is shooting up. She was also chilling with the A/C and fan "ON". We decided to bring her to the PCDC for the CBC at 10pm. We just waited for the result for almost 2 hours before going home. Reached our home in Cavite at almost 2am. JEL still have fever and her temp is rising an hour before her tempra intake. We texted the CBC result to her pedia at 6am. She prescribed an antibiotic because the CBC showed an infection. The dosage is too much for JEL. It was 5ml 3x a day. It was also kind of mentholated as per the smell. We needed to do 3 drops of it since she is choking if we give her more. We're also instructed to bring her to a baby friendly hospital for a CHEST and PA X-RAY. Thus, we brought her to Asian Hospital at 9am. She was crying inside the x-ray room. We're able to do the chest x-ray lying down. But we really had a hard time for the side view even with hubby's help. Hubby just decided to have the x-ray done while JEL is standing. He was holding JEL's hand and I was holding her feet. She looked super "kawawa" after the procedure. My heart really broke seeing the tears of my baby and the fear in her face. We went home after that and hubby just claimed the result after 5 hours. It was good that the result is negative. At least the suspected primary complex was eliminated. She still had slight fever for 2 days. It was good that September 21 was declared a holiday. We're able spend more time with her and see her development. She got well few days after that.

Right now, I am still worried because she again had cough and colds last week. Ariel brought her pedia last saturday (10/10/09) and she again took an antibiotic. She jsut finished it today and now under observation. Another thing that worries me is small lymph node below her right ear. It was there for almost 3 months already. The pedia just advised us to regularly check it if it will increase. We pray that it is nothing serious.

091609 - 1st day of Fever

091609 - with fever but still crawling.

091909 - Still Sick

092009 - Sick Pa rin

092009 - Sick and still trying to play

2nd LO for 2009 - PROJECT

2009-10-18T18:09:00.000+08:00

Been inspired to create a LO last night. It took me a long time to finish this since it's been awhile since I last scrapped. Anyway, I hope that I'll get my mojo back soon. I have a lot of backlogs.

Materials:
MSW PPS, HS Mask, Ranger Distress Ink, TH blending tool, Bazzill CS, Mesh, AC Thickers, KF CS Sticker, HS Blings, KF Rickrack Brad, Ranger Glossy Accent, Zig Pen, FP Transparency, Paper Adventure 3D Sticker, MM Paint, SR Chipboard.

Journaling:
I just love how you project in front of a camera. You're so cute!

Stuffs for JEL

2009-09-04T20:06:00.000+08:00

change

2009-07-14T15:30:00.000+08:00

the only constant thing in this world is CHANGE which is sometimes or most of the time hard to accept.

So What ... CHOCNUT!

2008-10-13T16:38:00.000+08:00

Some things I would like to tell some people
But I just don't want to.
Because I don't want to be like them.
Silence is the best killer.

-----------XOXO----------
your friends will not tell you who you are.
but your words will do.
good luck to you.
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as the saying goes..
don't do unto others...
what you don't want others do unto you...
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Life is beautiful
I don't know with you!
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I didn't like what you just said.
But you didn't care,
So why will I?!
-----------XOXO----------

Respect the Office

2008-03-06T16:20:00.005+08:00

i just saw how a subordinate disrespectfully responded to the supervisor. it is not acceptable to me. i don't know if i am being too naive or i just have some good moral. Hehehe.

i was brought up to be respectful at all times. i was told to always respect the elders, older people than me and those in position like teachers and bosses.

well... my thought:
... we can show that we don't like the person but at least... we should respect the "OFFICE".

Others may not agree to me... but who cares?! this is MY BLOG!

About Ranting

2008-02-15T18:13:00.003+08:00

Most of us are guilty of ranting and complaining about the things we see, feel, hear, taste,smell and experience.

But the question is... what do we about them?

I think ... i know the answer to this... we can't do anything about it?

If this is the case... aren't we just giving ourselves a hard time.

My suggestion is for us to count our blessings, try to look for the good things that we may had taken for granted, take a deep breath, thank GOD and SMILE!

This would save some lines on your forehead.

Internet and Social Life

2008-02-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

This is my opinion only.

PROS:
- can get tons of information
- can substitute for newspaper and TV news.
- paperless information

CONS:
- Anti-social if done frequently and done alone.

This is my opinion only...
Sometimes... it is also good to get information from other people or thru networking because you can get different opinions from different people. Though, at times, there is "dagdag-bawas" in the information.However, we are also not sure that all informations in the net are true.

Sometimes I also wonder, why other people can search the net more frequently. They seem to get a lot of info from it. But I have no regrets. Because.... I use my time spending quality moments with my husband, family and friends.

Halo-Halo

2008-01-23T19:08:00.000+08:00

I have a mixed emotion.....

sad... for the red flag.
happy... for the new assignment.
challenged... with the new tasks.
and many many more .....

but ....

i chose to be Optimistic!

Chance...

2008-01-14T15:24:00.000+08:00

I was given a chance...
I should take advantage of it
and show what I got and capable of.
Hihihi.

THEM....

2008-01-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

Some say...
if you can't beat them,
join then.

I say...
if you can't beat them and joined them.
But still can't bear them....LEAVE them. harhar.

Long Enough

2007-12-19T16:53:00.000+08:00

here they go again.
they did it once again
i could not help but grin
this is so unfair

i always kept my composure
i always kept my silence
but.... i think... this is too much
i had bear it long enough...

what's next... i still don't know....

where do i go from here?

2007-12-10T15:42:00.000+08:00

few days from now...
i'll finish the thing that I'm doing.
few days from now...
i don't know where I am going

a lot of things to do are listed
but they are not for me.
i don't know where to go
and don't what to do....

should i tell you?
though i fear negative reaction
though i'm afraid of rejection
though i know it will give a wrong notion....

sigh....

how?

2007-11-19T15:24:00.000+08:00

it's kinda sad.
got misinterpreted.
got mis-quoted.

right now, i find it hard to think.
i find it hard to react.
i find it hard to breathe.
i find it hard to accept.

it used to be ok.
it used to be fine
so sudden...
it changed....

i don't know how to react...
i don't know what to say...
i don't know...
i might just be mis quoted again.

so sad....

kinda tough

2007-11-19T09:54:00.001+08:00

cheering oneself is some kinda hard
especially if you're crying inside
people see u as tough
thus should not show them, u're sad

have it all

2007-11-14T18:08:00.000+08:00

i often told myself..
i feel sad
i feel empty
i am not happy... anymore

but don't be mistaken...
i am happy with my life
i know i'm blessed
but .. we can' t really have it all....

namamanhid

2007-11-13T09:32:00.000+08:00

'di ko alam kung bakit ako nalulumbay
tila di pansin ang sinag ng araw
kahit patuloy ang inog na mundo
nakakabingi ang bawat segundo

naiinip ako
nababagot ako
hinahanap ang mga nakasanayan ko
na biglang nawala dahil sa ibang tao

bigla na lang nangyari
nang di ko man lang nawari
pinaghirapan ko ay nawala
nang di naman "daw" sinasadya

buti na lang mabait ako
kahit masama ang loob
kahit sumikip ang puso
project pa rin ako

parang walang nangyari
parang walang nangyayari
parang walang nararamdaman
kahit puso at laman ay nasasaktan.

no use

2007-11-09T07:48:00.000+08:00

i rather not talk
because u won't listen
i rather not let u hear my voice
because you're mind is close

there's no use to reason out...
i'll just be wasting your and my time....

quality and quantity

2007-11-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

i want to know everything
i want to have it all
but it seems i can't
i lack time...

but i have no regrets...
i still believe in...Quality.
Quantity is second best.

it's ok

2007-10-24T17:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes.. i say it's ok
sometimes.. i say it's fine

but deep inside... it's not..
i'm disturbed..
i'm disappointed..

but...i still pray...
and THY will be done.

still.... even if...

2007-09-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

i grew up a fighter
not physically
not verbally
but emotionally

i had learned to hide my feelings
my feeling down
my feeling of disappointment
my feeling of sadness

i had learned to be strong for myself and others
for my friends
for my family
for my love ones

others may find me strong
others thought that I am tough
but they don't know that i also get tired
that i also cry when nobody see

i also feel heavy inside
i also have my weaknesses
because i am also... human...
and at times i need help....

(unless...u don't believe...that i am...harhar)

friends

2007-09-10T15:18:00.000+08:00

sometimes...
it's sad to lose somebody
somebody you considered a friend
somebody you trust
somebody to treated well

why does people only recognizes ur fault
forgot the good things u've done for them,
forgot the good times you've shared with them
or simply juz forgot everything

true friends should share secrets
true friends should be able to share insights
should not keep hatred and dismay
instead be open and true

it hurts to lose a friend... but life has go on...
i think... people in ur life come and go...
now i believe...
friends that come easy...go easy...

but true friends will remain true friends...
no matter how far they are
no matter how long you're not seeing each other
no matter what....

what's with me?

2007-09-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

there's something with me...
i don't know what
i kept on smiling
for no reason at all

i should be sad
for losing in a challenge
but seems i'm just doing fine
and was not even affected

did i change?
did something happen?
hmmmm.....

worth a try

2007-09-04T13:42:00.000+08:00

there was a time that you said what you feel
you've shown what's on your mind
but rejection went on the way..
and just ruined your morale...

will there be some other time?
will there be any hope?
will there be any chance?
or just same old reaction?

dont know if i can still say
what i want to say
what you ought to hear
what you ought to know...

i guess i will...
i still will...
but when and how...
that.... i dont know...

finished this in less than 5 mins..

Right Then

2007-09-04T13:22:00.000+08:00

Modified Julia Roberts' line in "My Bestfriend's Wedding".

If you have something to say....
Say it...
Say it right then....
Say it out loud...

Or moment just passes you by....

Hard to be a middle-man.

will?

2007-08-27T17:36:00.001+08:00

will i ever have
will i ever be
will there be
or just ... this...

Buti na LANG

2007-08-23T12:48:00.000+08:00


written way way back April'02. i was so demotivated then.

Buti pa yung scrapped lots, hinaharap.
Buti pa ang low yields, pinapansin.
Buti pa sila nakikita....
Yung iba ...hindi.....

Buti pa FQA fails, hinohold.
Buti pa ang fail OS, inaayos.
Buti pa ang EOS,pini-fix.
Yung iba....hindi.....

Buti pa bent leads, nire-rework.
Buti pa rejects nire-rescreen.
Buti pa sila may pag-asa,
Yung iba.....wala....

am i ???

2007-08-23T12:22:00.001+08:00

m i over reacting?
m i being too sensitive?
m i unreasonable?
m i inconsiderate?

how will i know?

12:20pm

what ifs

2007-08-23T00:20:00.000+08:00

what if i resign today
what if i move to the other group
what if i voice out my concern...
what will?

what if i get pregnant next month
what if i needed to rest
will there be a change?

lots of questions
lots of wonders
lots of what ifs...
still no answer... do i want an answer?
now..idon't know...

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