will?

will i ever have
will i ever be
will there be
or just ... this...

Buti na LANG

written way way back April'02. i was so demotivated then.

Buti pa yung scrapped lots, hinaharap.
Buti pa ang low yields, pinapansin.
Buti pa sila nakikita....
Yung iba ...hindi.....

Buti pa FQA fails, hinohold.
Buti pa ang fail OS, inaayos.
Buti pa ang EOS,pini-fix.
Yung iba....hindi.....

Buti pa bent leads, nire-rework.
Buti pa rejects nire-rescreen.
Buti pa sila may pag-asa,
Yung iba.....wala....

am i ???

m i over reacting?
m i being too sensitive?
m i unreasonable?
m i inconsiderate?

how will i know?

12:20pm

what ifs

what if i resign today
what if i move to the other group
what if i voice out my concern...
what will?

what if i get pregnant next month
what if i needed to rest
will there be a change?

lots of questions
lots of wonders
lots of what ifs...
still no answer... do i want an answer?
now..idon't know...

1120am