Long Enough

here they go again.
they did it once again
i could not help but grin
this is so unfair

i always kept my composure
i always kept my silence
but.... i think... this is too much
i had bear it long enough...

what's next... i still don't know....

where do i go from here?

few days from now...
i'll finish the thing that I'm doing.
few days from now...
i don't know where I am going

a lot of things to do are listed
but they are not for me.
i don't know where to go
and don't what to do....

should i tell you?
though i fear negative reaction
though i'm afraid of rejection
though i know it will give a wrong notion....

sigh....

how?

it's kinda sad.
got misinterpreted.
got mis-quoted.

right now, i find it hard to think.
i find it hard to react.
i find it hard to breathe.
i find it hard to accept.

it used to be ok.
it used to be fine
so sudden...
it changed....

i don't know how to react...
i don't know what to say...
i don't know...
i might just be mis quoted again.

so sad....

kinda tough

cheering oneself is some kinda hard
especially if you're crying inside
people see u as tough
thus should not show them, u're sad

have it all

i often told myself..
i feel sad
i feel empty
i am not happy... anymore

but don't be mistaken...
i am happy with my life
i know i'm blessed
but .. we can' t really have it all....

namamanhid

'di ko alam kung bakit ako nalulumbay
tila di pansin ang sinag ng araw
kahit patuloy ang inog na mundo
nakakabingi ang bawat segundo

naiinip ako
nababagot ako
hinahanap ang mga nakasanayan ko
na biglang nawala dahil sa ibang tao

bigla na lang nangyari
nang di ko man lang nawari
pinaghirapan ko ay nawala
nang di naman "daw" sinasadya

buti na lang mabait ako
kahit masama ang loob
kahit sumikip ang puso
project pa rin ako

parang walang nangyari
parang walang nangyayari
parang walang nararamdaman
kahit puso at laman ay nasasaktan.

no use

i rather not talk
because u won't listen
i rather not let u hear my voice
because you're mind is close

there's no use to reason out...
i'll just be wasting your and my time....