Halo-Halo

I have a mixed emotion.....

sad... for the red flag.
happy... for the new assignment.
challenged... with the new tasks.
and many many more .....

but ....

i chose to be Optimistic!

Chance...

I was given a chance...
I should take advantage of it
and show what I got and capable of.
Hihihi.

THEM....

Some say...
if you can't beat them,
join then.

I say...
if you can't beat them and joined them.
But still can't bear them....LEAVE them. harhar.

Long Enough

here they go again.
they did it once again
i could not help but grin
this is so unfair

i always kept my composure
i always kept my silence
but.... i think... this is too much
i had bear it long enough...

what's next... i still don't know....

where do i go from here?

few days from now...
i'll finish the thing that I'm doing.
few days from now...
i don't know where I am going

a lot of things to do are listed
but they are not for me.
i don't know where to go
and don't what to do....

should i tell you?
though i fear negative reaction
though i'm afraid of rejection
though i know it will give a wrong notion....

sigh....

how?

it's kinda sad.
got misinterpreted.
got mis-quoted.

right now, i find it hard to think.
i find it hard to react.
i find it hard to breathe.
i find it hard to accept.

it used to be ok.
it used to be fine
so sudden...
it changed....

i don't know how to react...
i don't know what to say...
i don't know...
i might just be mis quoted again.

so sad....

kinda tough

cheering oneself is some kinda hard
especially if you're crying inside
people see u as tough
thus should not show them, u're sad